> Every time I try, it's gone again so fast that that it's like an endless loop.
Only advice I have to you is:
1. Do no take meditation advice from the internet. Or try to battle with your difficulties endlessly alone, with books, or the internet. Internet is full of fools. Deeply into the mediation who just try to be helpful, but have no experience (even if they claims so).
2. Start training in a group where teacher has trained for decades and taught others for a very long time to give you instructions (Happens often in religious Buddhist setting, but if they know what they are doing it does not matter, mindfulness teachers for profit generally don't know shit, they just repeat what they learned in the course).
Only advice I have to you is:
1. Do no take meditation advice from the internet. Or try to battle with your difficulties endlessly alone, with books, or the internet. Internet is full of fools. Deeply into the mediation who just try to be helpful, but have no experience (even if they claims so).
2. Start training in a group where teacher has trained for decades and taught others for a very long time to give you instructions (Happens often in religious Buddhist setting, but if they know what they are doing it does not matter, mindfulness teachers for profit generally don't know shit, they just repeat what they learned in the course).